August 14, 2013 - Let's just jump right into the journey Chapter 1

I firmly believe that you can eat all the right things, do all the right exercise and still be sick because your spirit is sick. Over my life I have found myself on a journey integrating my mind, body and spirit. It is here that I will share my journey in hopes that others may be encouraged and given hope for their own personal journey.

I do not just seek peace in my life, but Shalom. Shalom is a Hebrew word that means nothing missing, nothing broken, complete peace. It is the peace that passes all understanding that Yeshua (Jesus) told us about.

A number of years ago, like 30 plus, I went through a painful divorce. Through a newspaper ad I found a 12 step program called Suddenly Alone and began attending. Having a deep faith in God I was able to relate to the “Higher Power” in the 12 steps as the creator of the universe, my redeemer and savior. However, there were people in the group who just did not believe in God and could not relate to Him as a “Higher Power”.

In the group it did not matter what you chose as your higher power, but just that you needed one. I remember one man, who was particularly angry about his divorce, chose a paper bag that he put on top of his refrigerator. It seemed to me to be odd at the time, since I was in the process of fully submitting myself to the God of the Universe, but it seemed to work for him. As we worked through our 12 steps, we each turned over our powerlessness to our Higher Power. For most of us that was symbolic more than physical, but for this particular man he put everything in the paper bag on top of the refrigerator.

I remember writing letters to God about how I felt going through the divorce, what I though He should do about it, and how I wanted him to fix it all and make my marriage work again. God is God, He does not do what we want Him to do for us. He does what’s best for us; and so I worked my way through the 12 steps, realizing I was really powerless over my life because I had given my life to Him, it was His, I was His and what I wanted in my life was no longer my options because I gave myself to Him. Thus began a journey of total trust and reliance upon God who created me for my own unique destiny.